Time to get it together.
How long have I been blogging now? No, really. I'm not checking. A couple of months? Sure. I've been waxing poetic about my (often mis)adventures in the fit world for a while now. Acting like I know what I'm doing. Doling out advice with little snippets of sheer genius. But even though I've put up a little post about my goals and being more consistent and all that jazz, it's still not working 100%.
Hmmm. Is there a lesson in all of this? Of course there is. A person can't be On all the time. Eventually, that bulb burns out, and you're left more than Off - you're left frustrated and angry at yourself and disappointed. "Why can't I do this? Why am I not strong or good enough?" All that negative talk is bad news. All it does is derail the train to Awesometown.
Frankly, I'm struggling with the Effits. As in, Eff It. Things at work are seriously picking up. Some days (like today, por ejemplo), I don't even get to stop working, much less leave my desk for lunch. I worked over 9 hours today. It's a busy time, and all that busyness makes me antsy - I feel like I'm not getting everything accomplished that I want to get done, and that sort of spirals into my personal life, no matter how much I want to keep it out. Picking fights with Hubbs, being pissed about every little thing the dog does...it's irritating as all get up, frankly. It DEFINITELY rolls over into working out and eating well. For example, I'm currently writing this, drinking not my first, but my second Surley (Bender, because I know you're gonna ask) beer. Why? Because I had a 300-calorie lunch, so Eff It.
Therein lies my problem.
Consistency. Sticking to it. Moral aptitude? Maybe.
I need to figure out how to be at 100% all the time. I have the desire to be better at this. That's gotta count for something, right? Maybe that's the first step? Knowing that I want to be better than I am must be the first step to getting to 100%.
Anybody else got a way that they get themselves to 11?
For the love of God, please share!
Also, I feel that it should be noted that I'm watching "The Best Thing I Ever Ate" on the Food Network. It's about the best fried chicken. It's like everything is working against me tonight! Bah.